A Journey Into My Heart

I really wasn’t sure what I was in for when I signed up for a Sacred Bean Cacao Ceremony.  All I knew was that it made me feel excited, it was connected to the Mayans, and I would be drinking a cacao drink~~ it sounded like a great evening for me.

And let me say, it went beyond my expectations, even though I had none to begin with, for how the evening would play out.

Peter, our shaman for the evening has been working with the cacao bean for years, and was told, prior to even knowing what these ceremonies were all about, that he would be doing them.  And I can see why.  His energy is calm, and knowledgeable and he holds a wisdom in his aura about what each person will experience.

The evening started off with some scientific backing as to why this stuff works.  Basically, it enlarges your heart; it opens you up to feeling your heart center, and removing any blockages.  This strain of cacao bean is the only one that is able to do that, as it is not processed, or heated past a certain point that takes it’s properties.

Peter let us all choose our own cacao bean.  As soon as I had mine in my hand, I felt my energy begin to shift.  I rubbed it, I held it, and I wanted to taste a bit of it.  We had been told that they can be quite bitter (especially compared to what we are used to) and so I hesitated in tasting mine.  The bean looks no different than I would expect it to~~ small, smooth, very little smell, however it was much smoother and lighter than I would have thought.

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As our ceremony began, we called in the energies from the West, North, East and South.  As we activated the West, I fingered my bean, and thought how I would like to taste it.  A piece literally crumbled into my fingers, and so I put it in my mouth, and was pleasantly surprised at the taste.  I found it to be almost tasteless but enough sweetness to make it enjoyable… and that’s where my journey began.

As we went from each direction, I had animal spirits coming forward…

a lion (As such, lions symbolizes emotions that are difficult to manage, such a anger or fear.) 

 a wolf (Wolves are wild animals that are not easily domesticated and when they appear as spirit guides, they could be an invitation to look at what supports your authentic self and the true expression of yourself. The wolf totem is a reminder to keep your spirit alive and trust your instincts to find the way that will best suit you.)

and a bear (The spirit of the bear is a strong source of support in times of difficulty. It provides courage and a stable foundation to face challenges. When the bear shows up as a spirit guide in your life, it’s perhaps time to stand for your beliefs or your truth. This power animal will provide for support and strength.  The bear is also a guide to take leadership in your life or in other people’s lives. This animal is feared and admired for its strength. Its presence inspires respect. Its strength and powerful stature will inspire you to step into a leadership role in your life and take action without fear.  Interestingly, in Siberia, the name used to designate women shaman is the same as the word “bear”. In Northern America, in the Inuit tradition, the bear spirit animal is also connected to the shamanic tradition and women.

As we went to the higher world, I had a woman’s face in a star show up and smile at me, and as we invited in our ancestors, another woman, this one much older, wiser, and familiar came forward.  She smiled at me and her eyes crinkled…. she was so joyful.  At this point I was overcome with emotion… pure gratitude for those who were coming forward for me.

At the beginning of the session, we were invited to play in whatever way Spirit led us to do.  We were given markers, pencil crayons, oil pastels and paper.  There were instruments of all different kinds to make music with, crystals to hold onto, and smudging materials to cleanse ourselves with if we chose.

I drew and wrote a lot.  Spirit continued to come forward with many messages for me.  I started off with my hands tied behind my back, my heart closed to anything and everything that the Universe had to offer me.   The song, ‘Sweet Caroline’ started humming in my head, and I keep thinking of the ‘Bon, bon, bon!’ that everyone loves to join in on.  What I realized in my journey into my heart, was that this closed off heart, the one that is afraid to love fully, to connect deeply with others, simply needed to reach out, to connect with others, to break the chains that have been binding me (the chains being there because I created them)  It seems I have spent many lifetimes alone, as connecting with others would only bring hurt.  This time around I have filled my life with so many, and yet, don’t always feel the connection…. because I won’t allow it to happen (with myself either)

As we continued to journey forward, I found myself being transformed like a butterfly, stepping into my power, and embracing my full feminine divine.  I was reminded of the wisdom that I carry within me, and the wisdom that the feminine divine within me carries as well.  I (like all of us) am a Creator in my world.  I am able to create that which I am wanting to see, into my life.  The only thing that will stop me, is myself, if I allow it.

As my journey came to an end, I was greeted with an Owl, sitting at a desk.  He had a book for me, that was locked, and then handed me the key, and told me that the book was now mine to use and implement whenever I was guided to.  The book was a Book of Wisdom.  As I came home and read what the animal message for Own is, it only makes sense that Owl showed up.

( The owl spirit animal is emblematic of a deep connection with wisdom and intuitive knowledge. If you have the owl as totem or power animal, you’re likely to have the ability to see what’s usually hidden to most. When the spirit of this animal guides you, you can see the true reality, beyond illusion and deceit. The owl also offers for those who have it a personal totem the inspiration and guidance necessary to deeply explore the unknown and the magic of life.) 

This was the perfect gift to end the ceremony and I felt as though my journey was completed.  I received answers that I needed to hear, while also shedding layers of fears, hurts, angers and disappointments that I no longer wished to carry with me.

 

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Every person that attended, had a unique experience… some drawing, some dancing, some chanting and singing, some playing music~~ but one thing that remained the same was the childlike joy and wonderment that we all felt at the end.

If you haven’t had a chance to do a Sacred Bean Ceremony yet, I highly suggest you do~~ you won’t be disappointed with the love you receive.

 

Until next time,

xoCatherine

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Catherine Graham is an intuitive, healer, and owner of Journey Healers. Catherine is also a mom of 7, and one granddaughter. She has been working with Spirit since 2004. Any comments or questions can be emailed to her at Catherine@journeyhealers.com

 

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