A Conversation With My Higher Self

If you could ask your Higher Self anything, what would it be?  How would you want the conversation to go?   Read on to hear my experiences in talking to the highest part of my being… a unique journey that has opened me up on so many levels.  

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A few weeks ago, I had a video on my Facebook feed that kept showing up from Suzanne Bertolas for a Quantum Healing Hypnosis Technique (QHHT) session.   Suzanne was looking for volunteers for a new practice that she was learning.   At first, I didn’t pay attention, but when it continued to show up, I decided to take the leap, without really understanding what I was getting myself into.

Suzanne got me booked in for this past week, and gave me instructions to fill out some forms, and write down about 20 questions that I wanted answers to, so that I could ask my higher self.

I arrived on the day, and was greeted with Suzanne’s warm disposition.   We sat and talked for about an hour and a half before the session started, to put me at ease, and so she could get a better understanding of who I am before the session started.

QHHT was developed by Dolores Cannon as a unique hypnosis session, that can take you into a past life and then connect you with your Higher Self, to bring forward information, understanding and healing.   Like many hypnosis sessions, there is the count down into a more relaxed state, however, in this particular session, rather than going to the Beta state, you are going to the Theta state, which is much deeper and feels more connected to the Soul’s energy.

For myself, it was as though I was beside myself, hearing myself speak, and yet experiencing within my mind’s eye what was actually happening.

I first traveled to a land with pyramids.  Although it was not Egypt as we know it today.  There was a lot of sand around these pyramids and the land went on forever.  I was a young girl in my early twenties named Parmella.  My father held the throne, and he was a very greedy man, and very possessive of his belongings, his temple and his family.  I admitted to flirting with my guard, Osteff, so that I could get out of the pyramid, and talk to the town’s people.  I was very interested in what their stories were, and what they had to share with the world.   I was heavily invested in their lives, but I couldn’t do much more than hear their stories, as my father would kill me if he knew I was talking to those of average citizenship. 

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I was also a ‘seer’~~ I had visions of what was to come of the land, the pyramid-temple that we lived and my father especially.  I knew there would be an uprising of the citizens and that they would kill my father.  I did not tell him, as he didn’t like to hear of my gifts of vision, and I knew he would kill me if I shared these with him.   I wore a white plain dress, with many crystals around my wrists and neckline (almost as though they were the edging for the material…. very tiny little beads).  I specifically liked to wear lapis lazuli, garnet and carnelian.  

The time came when my father was overthrown from the pyramid-temple, and the ‘villiage-people’ were able to thrive once again.   They went from living in total disarray, to living in lush greenery; from having very little to eat, to having feasts; and from not being able to enter the pyramid, to the doors always being open for everyone to come and go as they pleased. 

At this time, I met Marelek (my husband Jon, in this lifetime)  The feelings within my heart center at this encounter can not be described with words.   I felt myself opening up to him completely, and continued to say, ‘He sees me.  He sees the real me’.   In my mind, I knew that he had dreamt of me, and seen that I had these gifts, and he decided to find me, based on his dream alone. 

We married, and became the couple of the temple.   We had a daughter together, and everything was flourishing.   

Greed was a huge theme in this life, and while my husband and myself did not seem to suffer from greed, it was the greed of others that continued to hurt us.   My last breath in that lifetime, was watching many arrows in my husband’s back as people who wanted the temple killed him, and killed me as well (again from arrows in the back… 4 to be exact).

I was very understanding in this lifetime of the human experience, and the way that the humans interacted with one another, and how their own ego-driven desires could corrupt them.  

After floating from my physical body as Parmella in that lifetime, I went to meet my Higher Self, and to speak with her about issues that I am having in my life at this time.   This is where the 20 questions that I had written down would be used, so that I could ask my higher self what it wanted to say to me.

At this point in the session, I became very ‘outside of myself’ and listening to myself, without being outside of myself.   Yes, it may sound crazy, but it’s something that you will have to experience to fully understand!

The message from my higher self was clear, precise and to the point.   There was no beating around the bush to get the message across.  You can watch the full episode here. 

 

After my session, I felt as though I needed some more time to process everything.  There was a lot of information that came forward, and it felt as though a few seedlings had been planted, however, what I didn’t expect was for the session to continue on, even days later, as I continued to integrate the energies that I experienced in the session.

On the first night, my Higher Self came back to me in a dream.  She placed one hand on my lower spine, and one hand on the base of my neck, holding the energy, and realigning me with my Soul’s purpose.  When I asked her what she was doing, she said, ‘Only continuing what you have started’.

On the second day, I could see.  I am an intuitive and a psychic medium.  I often see images in my mind’s eye, however, on the second day, when a client walked in, I clearly seen a purple glow around her, and the Spirit team that she showed up with.  I had never experienced anything so clearly.

My Higher Self was delivering!  One question that I had for my higher self had to do with my healing modality that I am developing, the Ohana Generational Healing.  She told me to just leave it, and she would bring forward the right people.  Since the session, I have booked 4 new people in for a session and signed 2 up for classes.

I started to connect the dots, knowing my Higher Self has been around before.   There are two times in my past, that I am able to see that my Higher Self was stepping in, in it’s greatest form, to help me along my journey.

In the first instance, I was in a past life, as a witch doctor in the 14th century.  I was killed by the people of the church for not converting to their religion.  The thoughts that went through my mind at that time were pure love and forgiveness, exactly as I had experienced in the lifetime as Parmella, when I was shot in the back with arrows.

The second instance, was a period in this lifetime, when I was met by a stranger on the bus, who, told me quite drunkenly, to continue to write my stories, as everyone has a story to tell, and the only way to heal the world, is to hear the stories that people have to share.   This was the same message that Parmella understood, at a very deep level, when she went out to speak to her town’s people.

All in all, I was very impressed with the experience.  I have so much more to share, and yet feel that this is long enough for today!  If you have been thinking about getting a QHHT session, book with Suzanne here .   I highly recommend this for anyone wanting some deeper assurance about where they are in their life’s path, and work.

 

Until next time,

xoCatherine

 

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Catherine Graham is an intuitive, healer, and owner of Journey Healers. Catherine is also a mom of 7, and one granddaughter. She has been working with Spirit since 2004. Any comments or questions can be emailed to her at Catherine@journeyhealers.com
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I Believe….

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Waking up this morning,  I am bombarded by fear, anger, and sadness about the results of the U.S election.  I am not an American citizen, and yet, as an energy worker, an empath, and a citizen of this world,  I am feeling the emotions of the collective.

Yesterday, we all sat, in front of our computers, our tv’s, and thought, it can’t possibly be, that someone who is so openly hateful to so many people will be President.  It didn’t work for Hitler… why would we choose that again??

And yet, it happened.

And what I can say is that even though we are different, we are being united by a common bond.  It doesn’t matter your religion, your beliefs, your gender, your sexuality, your status, all of these things that have separated us in the past, there are millions around the world that are all coming together to say that we don’t like this.  That this shadow that has presented itself must be turned into one of light.  That we must stand up for our fellow humanity, that we must protect each other from the hate, that we must love one another, and stand together as one.

And for that, I can thank you, Mr. Trump.  Your Soul’s energy must be quite a strong one, to be able to bring forth such a shadow, to spew so much hate, and to be the one, who is allowing the rest of us to see that a change must be made.  You have brought voice to the many hateful thoughts that so many have had whirling in their heads, and you have given them an open door to get their own shadows out there in the open. For this, I can thank you.

For you have given myself, and all other lightworkers,  an open door to step through, to allow our lights to begin to shine in the darkest of places.  This is an opportunity for us to see what we can do to help our fellow brothers and sisters, to shine light on our own shadows, so that we can become beacons of light everywhere across the world.

I believe in love.   I believe in peace.  I believe in hope.  I believe in a better future for our children.  This will happen.

For all of you reading this, I ask you to find within yourself, a way to bring love to each situation you’re in, from this day forward.  I ask you to show compassion to the teenager at the drivethru who got your order wrong; the mom who you believe isn’t doing a good enough job; the one who’s sexuality you don’t understand; the one who is too lazy at work; the one who gets on your nerves; the one who hates so openly…. find love in your heart… spread kindness, show compassion.  This is how we will change the world; one act of forgiveness, of kindness, of compassion and understanding at a time.

Let’s unite together to raise the vibrations that are being shook to their core right now.

We can do this.  I believe.

Until next time,

xoCatherine

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Catherine Graham is an intuitive, healer, and owner of Journey Healers. Catherine is also a mom of 7, and one granddaughter. She has been working with Spirit since 2004. Any comments or questions can be emailed to her at Catherine@journeyhealers.com

A Journey Into My Heart

I really wasn’t sure what I was in for when I signed up for a Sacred Bean Cacao Ceremony.  All I knew was that it made me feel excited, it was connected to the Mayans, and I would be drinking a cacao drink~~ it sounded like a great evening for me.

And let me say, it went beyond my expectations, even though I had none to begin with, for how the evening would play out.

Peter, our shaman for the evening has been working with the cacao bean for years, and was told, prior to even knowing what these ceremonies were all about, that he would be doing them.  And I can see why.  His energy is calm, and knowledgeable and he holds a wisdom in his aura about what each person will experience.

The evening started off with some scientific backing as to why this stuff works.  Basically, it enlarges your heart; it opens you up to feeling your heart center, and removing any blockages.  This strain of cacao bean is the only one that is able to do that, as it is not processed, or heated past a certain point that takes it’s properties.

Peter let us all choose our own cacao bean.  As soon as I had mine in my hand, I felt my energy begin to shift.  I rubbed it, I held it, and I wanted to taste a bit of it.  We had been told that they can be quite bitter (especially compared to what we are used to) and so I hesitated in tasting mine.  The bean looks no different than I would expect it to~~ small, smooth, very little smell, however it was much smoother and lighter than I would have thought.

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As our ceremony began, we called in the energies from the West, North, East and South.  As we activated the West, I fingered my bean, and thought how I would like to taste it.  A piece literally crumbled into my fingers, and so I put it in my mouth, and was pleasantly surprised at the taste.  I found it to be almost tasteless but enough sweetness to make it enjoyable… and that’s where my journey began.

As we went from each direction, I had animal spirits coming forward…

a lion (As such, lions symbolizes emotions that are difficult to manage, such a anger or fear.) 

 a wolf (Wolves are wild animals that are not easily domesticated and when they appear as spirit guides, they could be an invitation to look at what supports your authentic self and the true expression of yourself. The wolf totem is a reminder to keep your spirit alive and trust your instincts to find the way that will best suit you.)

and a bear (The spirit of the bear is a strong source of support in times of difficulty. It provides courage and a stable foundation to face challenges. When the bear shows up as a spirit guide in your life, it’s perhaps time to stand for your beliefs or your truth. This power animal will provide for support and strength.  The bear is also a guide to take leadership in your life or in other people’s lives. This animal is feared and admired for its strength. Its presence inspires respect. Its strength and powerful stature will inspire you to step into a leadership role in your life and take action without fear.  Interestingly, in Siberia, the name used to designate women shaman is the same as the word “bear”. In Northern America, in the Inuit tradition, the bear spirit animal is also connected to the shamanic tradition and women.

As we went to the higher world, I had a woman’s face in a star show up and smile at me, and as we invited in our ancestors, another woman, this one much older, wiser, and familiar came forward.  She smiled at me and her eyes crinkled…. she was so joyful.  At this point I was overcome with emotion… pure gratitude for those who were coming forward for me.

At the beginning of the session, we were invited to play in whatever way Spirit led us to do.  We were given markers, pencil crayons, oil pastels and paper.  There were instruments of all different kinds to make music with, crystals to hold onto, and smudging materials to cleanse ourselves with if we chose.

I drew and wrote a lot.  Spirit continued to come forward with many messages for me.  I started off with my hands tied behind my back, my heart closed to anything and everything that the Universe had to offer me.   The song, ‘Sweet Caroline’ started humming in my head, and I keep thinking of the ‘Bon, bon, bon!’ that everyone loves to join in on.  What I realized in my journey into my heart, was that this closed off heart, the one that is afraid to love fully, to connect deeply with others, simply needed to reach out, to connect with others, to break the chains that have been binding me (the chains being there because I created them)  It seems I have spent many lifetimes alone, as connecting with others would only bring hurt.  This time around I have filled my life with so many, and yet, don’t always feel the connection…. because I won’t allow it to happen (with myself either)

As we continued to journey forward, I found myself being transformed like a butterfly, stepping into my power, and embracing my full feminine divine.  I was reminded of the wisdom that I carry within me, and the wisdom that the feminine divine within me carries as well.  I (like all of us) am a Creator in my world.  I am able to create that which I am wanting to see, into my life.  The only thing that will stop me, is myself, if I allow it.

As my journey came to an end, I was greeted with an Owl, sitting at a desk.  He had a book for me, that was locked, and then handed me the key, and told me that the book was now mine to use and implement whenever I was guided to.  The book was a Book of Wisdom.  As I came home and read what the animal message for Own is, it only makes sense that Owl showed up.

( The owl spirit animal is emblematic of a deep connection with wisdom and intuitive knowledge. If you have the owl as totem or power animal, you’re likely to have the ability to see what’s usually hidden to most. When the spirit of this animal guides you, you can see the true reality, beyond illusion and deceit. The owl also offers for those who have it a personal totem the inspiration and guidance necessary to deeply explore the unknown and the magic of life.) 

This was the perfect gift to end the ceremony and I felt as though my journey was completed.  I received answers that I needed to hear, while also shedding layers of fears, hurts, angers and disappointments that I no longer wished to carry with me.

 

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Every person that attended, had a unique experience… some drawing, some dancing, some chanting and singing, some playing music~~ but one thing that remained the same was the childlike joy and wonderment that we all felt at the end.

If you haven’t had a chance to do a Sacred Bean Ceremony yet, I highly suggest you do~~ you won’t be disappointed with the love you receive.

 

Until next time,

xoCatherine

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Catherine Graham is an intuitive, healer, and owner of Journey Healers. Catherine is also a mom of 7, and one granddaughter. She has been working with Spirit since 2004. Any comments or questions can be emailed to her at Catherine@journeyhealers.com

 

6 Simple Steps To Self Love

My birthday was last month, and I was surprised with a trip to the spa.  My husband did really good this year, and had planned out a ‘spa day’, complete with a Hawaiian hot stone massage, facial, mani/pedi and a luncheon that he picked out just for me.  It was a wonderful day of relaxation, and rejuvenation.  Being a mom of 7, running a business, being a wife, a friend, a sister… I am the first to tell people to take care of themselves, and one of the last people to actually do it.

It was in the moments of having a mixture of hot stones and cool sea shells rubbed over my back that I started to think of this ‘Self-Love’ thing that I like to talk about so much.

When is the last time you said that you love yourself?

Many equate love with relationships~~ their partner, children, parents, siblings, friends.  Very rarely do we look at ourselves and ask, Do I really love you?  Do I give you enough attention, admiration and adoration?  Do you give yourself compliments?  Or do you just complain about all of the shortcomings that you feel you have?

Our relationship with our Self is the very first relationship that we have.  We are there at the moment of conception, to the very moment we take our last breath.  You are the only one who was there for the first step, the first bike ride, first loose tooth, first kiss, first job, and so on. Only you have known your pain, your self judgments, your relationship ups and downs.  And yet, you are also the first person to turn down that second piece of cake, the great opportunity that fills you with fear, or a potential relationship that you are afraid of.

So I challenge you now, to put yourself first~~ to love yourself for the Being that you are.

In a world where putting yourself first is seen as selfish, or even cocky, I ask you to put yourself at the forefront of your life.  After all, you are the one that has to live it.

Not sure where to start?   Here are 5 simple steps for you to incorporate into your day.

BE MINDFUL

Be aware of yourself.  Know your thoughts, feelings and emotions.  Know where you stand.  By understanding where you are coming from, understanding what you are feeling, you open yourself to truly loving (and forgiving yourself.)  At first, you may have a difficult time understanding the feelings, however, give them a name.  Are you happy?  No?  Excited? No?  Proud?  Yes~ explore that.  Be honest with yourself. 

SELF CARE

Make sure you are taking the time every day to take care of yourself.  There are the norms~~ washing, brushing your hair and teeth~~ but there’s also some things that we may not think of~~  going for an energy treatment to let yourself relax, or going for a massage.  Take time for the little things, and let someone else take care of you, if only for an hour.

LOVE YOURSELF FIRST

When you look in the mirror first thing in the morning, rather than taking in the wrinkles, a gray hair, or the sagging skin, find 3 things you love about yourself.  Too hard?  Find 3 things that you think are okay about yourself.  It doesn’t have to be appearances, it can be based on your Soul’s appearance as well.  Start the day off with a compliment, and then focus on that for the day. 

(Would you want to be best friends with someone who constantly put you down?)

LISTEN TO WHAT YOUR HEART WANTS

Do you really want to watch Janet’s kids this weekend?  Do you really want to help Jimmy out at work?  Or are you doing these things because you feel obligated to, or are wanting appraisal for doing it?  Before saying yes to anything, ask yourself whether it’s something that will bring you joy, or if it will simply be another task to add to your to do list.  By listening to what your heart wants, rather than what your mind tells you you should be doing, you are staying true to your authentic self.

LET GO OF TOXIC PEOPLE AND TOXIC THINGS

One of the most popular books of last year was The Joy of Tidying Up.  This book has the reader hold their belongings and decide whether or not they are bringing joy or not.  If they are not bringing you joy, you are to throw this out, gift it, donate it, etc.  This has been my motto for years.  If it isn’t working, throw it out.  This is true for relationships, jobs, and stuff.  The more you clear out the energies that are taking you away from your True Self, the closer you can become with your True Self.  Allow yourself to let go.  Holding onto it will only bring you down and give you more reason to not like yourself.

DO WHAT YOU LOVE!

A funny human condition that I learned of a few years ago is how easy it is for us humans to stop doing the things that we love in favor of doing the things we don’t love.  For example, we may love to paint, and yet never make time for it, while we hate doing PTA meetings and constantly sign up for the next one to prove ourselves to someone.   Stop it!  Allow yourself the time and space to do what you love~~ painting, singing, knitting, gardening, working out… whatever it may be that gets you feeling good about yourself and your life. Create. Learn.  Live.

 

Many of us want to experience love, and the easiest, and best way to start that, it to love yourself.  When you can practice that daily, you have love to give out to the world, and we all know we could use a little more of that.

 

Until next time,

xoCatherine