When I mentioned to a counselor that I was seeing, that I believed our family had been cursed, as the same issues kept coming up, over and over again, she did all but roll her eyes at me, as she explained that I was having obsessive thinking. There was no such thing as a family curse~ nor could family members pass on the same experiences over and over again. I left it at that, but the thought continued to nag over and over in my mind.
Like every family, we have our share of issues~~ the areas that bring deep shame, the ones we feel guilty about, the experiences that still have us counting to 10 so we don’t lose our temper. That’s what family is all about, right?
So often, we get so caught up in our own experiences, that we don’t connect the dots to what our family…
If you could ask your Higher Self anything, what would it be? How would you want the conversation to go? Read on to hear my experiences in talking to the highest part of my being… a unique journey that has opened me up on so many levels.
A few weeks ago, I had a video on my Facebook feed that kept showing up from Suzanne Bertolas for a Quantum Healing Hypnosis Technique (QHHT) session. Suzanne was looking for volunteers for a new practice that she was learning. At first, I didn’t pay attention, but when it continued to show up, I decided to take the leap, without really understanding what I was getting myself into.
Suzanne got me booked in for this past week, and gave me instructions to fill out some forms, and write down about 20 questions that I wanted answers to, so that I could ask my higher self.
I arrived on the day, and was greeted with Suzanne’s warm disposition. We sat and talked for about an hour and a half before the session started, to put me at ease, and so she could get a better understanding of who I am before the session started.
QHHT was developed by Dolores Cannon as a unique hypnosis session, that can take you into a past life and then connect you with your Higher Self, to bring forward information, understanding and healing. Like many hypnosis sessions, there is the count down into a more relaxed state, however, in this particular session, rather than going to the Beta state, you are going to the Theta state, which is much deeper and feels more connected to the Soul’s energy.
For myself, it was as though I was beside myself, hearing myself speak, and yet experiencing within my mind’s eye what was actually happening.
I first traveled to a land with pyramids. Although it was not Egypt as we know it today. There was a lot of sand around these pyramids and the land went on forever. I was a young girl in my early twenties named Parmella. My father held the throne, and he was a very greedy man, and very possessive of his belongings, his temple and his family. I admitted to flirting with my guard, Osteff, so that I could get out of the pyramid, and talk to the town’s people. I was very interested in what their stories were, and what they had to share with the world. I was heavily invested in their lives, but I couldn’t do much more than hear their stories, as my father would kill me if he knew I was talking to those of average citizenship.
I was also a ‘seer’~~ I had visions of what was to come of the land, the pyramid-temple that we lived and my father especially. I knew there would be an uprising of the citizens and that they would kill my father. I did not tell him, as he didn’t like to hear of my gifts of vision, and I knew he would kill me if I shared these with him. I wore a white plain dress, with many crystals around my wrists and neckline (almost as though they were the edging for the material…. very tiny little beads). I specifically liked to wear lapis lazuli, garnet and carnelian.
The time came when my father was overthrown from the pyramid-temple, and the ‘villiage-people’ were able to thrive once again. They went from living in total disarray, to living in lush greenery; from having very little to eat, to having feasts; and from not being able to enter the pyramid, to the doors always being open for everyone to come and go as they pleased.
At this time, I met Marelek (my husband Jon, in this lifetime) The feelings within my heart center at this encounter can not be described with words. I felt myself opening up to him completely, and continued to say, ‘He sees me. He sees the real me’. In my mind, I knew that he had dreamt of me, and seen that I had these gifts, and he decided to find me, based on his dream alone.
We married, and became the couple of the temple. We had a daughter together, and everything was flourishing.
Greed was a huge theme in this life, and while my husband and myself did not seem to suffer from greed, it was the greed of others that continued to hurt us. My last breath in that lifetime, was watching many arrows in my husband’s back as people who wanted the temple killed him, and killed me as well (again from arrows in the back… 4 to be exact).
I was very understanding in this lifetime of the human experience, and the way that the humans interacted with one another, and how their own ego-driven desires could corrupt them.
After floating from my physical body as Parmella in that lifetime, I went to meet my Higher Self, and to speak with her about issues that I am having in my life at this time. This is where the 20 questions that I had written down would be used, so that I could ask my higher self what it wanted to say to me.
At this point in the session, I became very ‘outside of myself’ and listening to myself, without being outside of myself. Yes, it may sound crazy, but it’s something that you will have to experience to fully understand!
After my session, I felt as though I needed some more time to process everything. There was a lot of information that came forward, and it felt as though a few seedlings had been planted, however, what I didn’t expect was for the session to continue on, even days later, as I continued to integrate the energies that I experienced in the session.
On the first night, my Higher Self came back to me in a dream. She placed one hand on my lower spine, and one hand on the base of my neck, holding the energy, and realigning me with my Soul’s purpose. When I asked her what she was doing, she said, ‘Only continuing what you have started’.
On the second day, I could see. I am an intuitive and a psychic medium. I often see images in my mind’s eye, however, on the second day, when a client walked in, I clearly seen a purple glow around her, and the Spirit team that she showed up with. I had never experienced anything so clearly.
My Higher Self was delivering! One question that I had for my higher self had to do with my healing modality that I am developing, the Ohana Generational Healing. She told me to just leave it, and she would bring forward the right people. Since the session, I have booked 4 new people in for a session and signed 2 up for classes.
I started to connect the dots, knowing my Higher Self has been around before. There are two times in my past, that I am able to see that my Higher Self was stepping in, in it’s greatest form, to help me along my journey.
In the first instance, I was in a past life, as a witch doctor in the 14th century. I was killed by the people of the church for not converting to their religion. The thoughts that went through my mind at that time were pure love and forgiveness, exactly as I had experienced in the lifetime as Parmella, when I was shot in the back with arrows.
The second instance, was a period in this lifetime, when I was met by a stranger on the bus, who, told me quite drunkenly, to continue to write my stories, as everyone has a story to tell, and the only way to heal the world, is to hear the stories that people have to share. This was the same message that Parmella understood, at a very deep level, when she went out to speak to her town’s people.
All in all, I was very impressed with the experience. I have so much more to share, and yet feel that this is long enough for today! If you have been thinking about getting a QHHT session, book with Suzanne here . I highly recommend this for anyone wanting some deeper assurance about where they are in their life’s path, and work.
I recently finished the book, I Hope I Screw This Up by Kyle Cease, and let me just say, Kyle failed miserably in trying to screw up! A self help, motivational, inspirational book, I Hope I Screw This Up, awoke something within me that was previously screaming to get out.
Filled with simple concepts, and divine truths, I Hope I Screw This Up is the kind of self help book that you can actually read from front to back in a week, and feel excited to read it. I don’t know about you, but most self help books are so dry that I read the first couple of chapters and then put them back on my book shelf where they can patiently await to be picked up again.
A little background on Kyle first. He was a comedian, who, at the top of his game, decided that he wanted to venture into something different~~ Transformational Speaking. Since then, he has created a 3 day transformational workshop called Evolving Out Loud, and recently a 7 day event in Costa Rica. His humor is prevalent in all of his work, and his own spiritual truths that he shares hit you right in the heart center as you are able to connect them with your own spiritual truths.
In I Hope I Screw This Up, Kyle takes you into his own mind right from the beginning, allowing you to see the fears that he has coming forward in creating a book that his publicist has insisted that he do to take him to the next level. Anyone with a creative mind, or a new idea, knows how this process goes. A new thought comes forward, we decide to act on it and then our mind starts to go crazy with all of the reasons why this can’t possibly happen for us. And sometimes it’s these very thoughts that stop us from achieving our greatest dreams, or realizing our full potential.
For myself, I have been writing my fourth book, since 2012. In 5 years, I had written pieces here and there, and then deleted most of it to start all over again, hoping to figure out what I could write as a best seller. What I was neglecting (according to Kyle) was to simply write from my heart…. not to write the best seller, but to write what was real for me. It took me a week to read Kyle’s book, and in that week, I was able to write more of my 4th book than I had been able to in 5 years. Yes, the book is that inspiring!
Kyle truly takes you into the skeletons of your own closet and helps you to debunk all of the reasons your fears are not actually real, and are created within your own mind to stop you from achieving anything that you truly want, not because you don’t want them enough, but because your Ego mind is so focused on keeping you safe, that at times it stops you from living.
I don’t want to release too much information about the book because I truly want you to go out and buy this book (you can buy it here) and I promise you that I am not making any money from this blog post, nor am I getting kick backs from Kyle for talking about his book (although, Kyle, if you’re reading this, and you want to come and do an event in Canada, I would be truly grateful! I’ll even sell your tickets for you!) It is truly a kick ass book that everyone….. writer, artist, creator, business owner or whatever your calling… needs to read to get the kick start that they are needing to reach their own true potential.
Thank you Kyle for stepping into your greatest fears and making them into a great accomplishment for many.
Until next time,
For more information on Kyle and the work that he does, please visit his website at www.kylecease.com
Lightworkers around the globe have been faced with a stigma for years, that we are performing the devil’s work, by bringing healing, compassion and understanding to client’s through readings, Reiki, holistic measures, meditation and light working.
Recently, a ‘colleague’ put together an event, where myself, and another psychic medium would deliver messages from above, with proceeds going to a local charity.
It sounded like a great plan.
But the first charity that was approached, turned us away, stating that they refused to accept money from anyone doing the Devil’s work.
We moved onto another local charity. Again, we were told that they refused to accept money from anyone doing the Devil’s work.
This time, I felt frustrated.
You see, I am a lightworker. Which means, I pray to God, I work with God, the angels, Spirit Guides, Animal Totems, Universal energies, to help bring healing, understanding and compassion to my clients, my friends and my family.
Am I Christian? No, I don’t identify myself with a specific religion.
However, I spent every Sunday at Sunday school with my Mennonite grandparents until I was 12, I was the lead of the church choir for 3 years, attended 4 different Bible camps every summer from the age of 6-14, and was a part of a ‘youth group’ for a short period of my teen years. (This experience is a story for another day). I know Bible verses, I can sing church songs like no tomorrow. I get the core concepts of various Religious beliefs, and I adapt them into my every day living.
In my work, I meditate regularly, I connect with Source/God energy to bring forward messages and healing to help myself and my clients move forward through their tribulations. I accept my clients, my friends and my family for where they are at. I don’t judge their life path, or where they are headed, but rather open my heart to share love with them.
I am by no means perfect. In fact, there are days when I am tired of the work I do, days where I lose my temper, days when I don’t believe in a God of any type, and days where I curse up a storm.
But do I work with the Devil? Does the money I make in my business come from a place of hell rather than healing? Is the work I do a sin, and therefore, all of my clients sinners?
I wonder whether these organizations would tell Jesus that they wouldn’t accept his money? After all, he healed others, by lending compassion and understanding; by teaching others to love each other, to forgive. He encouraged others to have a relationship with God, to love themselves and each other. He used his hands to bring healing, not from himself, but rather from his Father, God.
I wonder how badly these organizations need money to do their ‘work of God’ when they so willingly turn down money that is being given to them.
These organizations that we contacted are not the first to do so around the globe.
In the early 2000’s, Red Cross denied a $1 million dollar donation from the Dixie Chicks, for comments they made about their political beliefs.
In 2016, a woman was fired from a 17 year gig from Operation Christmas Child for supporting beliefs such as same sex marriage and abortion.
In this day and age, when our country is so diverse in it’s cultures, religious beliefs, upbringings, families, sexualities, etc, how can we, as a society possibly show any judgement, non-acceptance and discrimination towards anyone? What gives a charitable organization the right to turn away money from well meaning people based on their own religious beliefs, judgements and view points? At what point do we step away from being the Judge ourselves and let God become the judge at the end, like it is stated in the Bible?
I have nothing against Christians, Catholics, Hindus, Jews, Buddhists, Muslims, Atheists or any other religious groups.
I believe that there are many paths to God, just as there are many paths to New York City. Some may take a plane, some may take a train, some may walk, some may drive on one highway, while others will drive on another. It doesn’t mean that any one of us is wrong, but rather that we have chosen a different path, and who am I to judge that?
Let’s stop the judgements already. Let’s act as God, and find acceptance in everyone, regardless of their religious beliefs, culture, viewpoints, sexuality, and living situations.
If we truly want to make the world a better place, we need to stop pointing the finger to the ‘apparent devil workers’ and instead look within ourselves to see where we can put more love and acceptance into our work.
As we enter into the holiday season, it can be easy to have a list a mile long of all of the things that you have to do…. buy gifts, wrap presents, visit family, clean the house, go here and there for special events~~ but do you have a space on your to-do list, for taking care of you?With the extra stress of the holidays, it’s important that you take some time out for yourself, to focus on what it is your body needs. Think you don’t have time? Think again! Here’s 7 strategies so you can enhance your self-care regimen at home!
No one is expecting you to do everything. (Except you!) Hand out tasks to others for them to complete, so that you have that bit of extra time on your hands. Get your husband to wrap the gifts, older kids to do baking, younger kids to fill out Christmas cards. You don’t have to do everything. Make a list of everything that needs to be done, and then assign tasks to those in your family that feel capable (note I didn’t say, that you feel are capable) of getting the task done. And don’t stress that it’s not the way you want it to be done!
Even 5 minutes a day can be enough to bring some peaceful calm into the hectic-ness of the season. Give yourself that 5 minute break to center your mind and heart, and release that which is no longer serving you. Can’t get your mind to quieten down? Try a guided meditation instead. There are tons available on youtube for free!
Honour your emotions. The holidays can be tough. They bring up memories of loved ones who are no longer with us, they bring up old family issues and dysfunctions, they bring up loneliness of holiday seasons past. Don’t get pulled into the notion that you need to be a cheery elf; rather take some time to sit with your emotions, honour them and then move forward. When we try to repress them, they can grow bigger and bigger. By honouring them, you are giving yourself a way to release them.
4. Get a treatment.
De-stress by booking a healing treatment with an energy practitioner in your area. Massage, Reiki, reflexology, Access Bars, and IET are all great ways to relax and de-stress over the holiday. Click here to book a session with Catherine.
5. Have a break.
Book some time off to grab coffee with a friend, schedule in a lunch, or simply just be together. Friends can help to bring laughter into your life, when it feels like everything else is too much.
6. Protect yourself.
All too often, we pick up on the energies of people around us. If others are feeling holiday stress, it can be easy to pick up on that energy, and feel as though it is our own. Protect yourself from picking up this energy by putting a shield around you (imagine a giant disco ball that reflects the energy back to the person, use the image of a filter around you that filters out any negativity). You can also ask yourself, ‘Does this belong to me?’ If your immediate thought is no, simply ask that it be returned to sender.
7. Do Something You Love
I am a bath lover. When I am feeling stressed, there is nothing like a long soak in the tub to get me back to feeling like myself. Find one thing you love and do that, whether it be reading, baking, painting, singing, dancing or relaxing in the tub. By giving yourself a ‘joy moment’ you are filling up your energy reserves, so that you have more to give.
Waking up this morning, I am bombarded by fear, anger, and sadness about the results of the U.S election. I am not an American citizen, and yet, as an energy worker, an empath, and a citizen of this world, I am feeling the emotions of the collective.
Yesterday, we all sat, in front of our computers, our tv’s, and thought, it can’t possibly be, that someone who is so openly hateful to so many people will be President. It didn’t work for Hitler… why would we choose that again??
And yet, it happened.
And what I can say is that even though we are different, we are being united by a common bond. It doesn’t matter your religion, your beliefs, your gender, your sexuality, your status, all of these things that have separated us in the past, there are millions around the world that are all coming together to say that we don’t like this. That this shadow that has presented itself must be turned into one of light. That we must stand up for our fellow humanity, that we must protect each other from the hate, that we must love one another, and stand together as one.
And for that, I can thank you, Mr. Trump. Your Soul’s energy must be quite a strong one, to be able to bring forth such a shadow, to spew so much hate, and to be the one, who is allowing the rest of us to see that a change must be made. You have brought voice to the many hateful thoughts that so many have had whirling in their heads, and you have given them an open door to get their own shadows out there in the open. For this, I can thank you.
For you have given myself, and all other lightworkers, an open door to step through, to allow our lights to begin to shine in the darkest of places. This is an opportunity for us to see what we can do to help our fellow brothers and sisters, to shine light on our own shadows, so that we can become beacons of light everywhere across the world.
I believe in love. I believe in peace. I believe in hope. I believe in a better future for our children. This will happen.
For all of you reading this, I ask you to find within yourself, a way to bring love to each situation you’re in, from this day forward. I ask you to show compassion to the teenager at the drivethru who got your order wrong; the mom who you believe isn’t doing a good enough job; the one who’s sexuality you don’t understand; the one who is too lazy at work; the one who gets on your nerves; the one who hates so openly…. find love in your heart… spread kindness, show compassion. This is how we will change the world; one act of forgiveness, of kindness, of compassion and understanding at a time.
Let’s unite together to raise the vibrations that are being shook to their core right now.
I really wasn’t sure what I was in for when I signed up for a Sacred Bean Cacao Ceremony. All I knew was that it made me feel excited, it was connected to the Mayans, and I would be drinking a cacao drink~~ it sounded like a great evening for me.
And let me say, it went beyond my expectations, even though I had none to begin with, for how the evening would play out.
Peter, our shaman for the evening has been working with the cacao bean for years, and was told, prior to even knowing what these ceremonies were all about, that he would be doing them. And I can see why. His energy is calm, and knowledgeable and he holds a wisdom in his aura about what each person will experience.
The evening started off with some scientific backing as to why this stuff works. Basically, it enlarges your heart; it opens you up to feeling your heart center, and removing any blockages. This strain of cacao bean is the only one that is able to do that, as it is not processed, or heated past a certain point that takes it’s properties.
Peter let us all choose our own cacao bean. As soon as I had mine in my hand, I felt my energy begin to shift. I rubbed it, I held it, and I wanted to taste a bit of it. We had been told that they can be quite bitter (especially compared to what we are used to) and so I hesitated in tasting mine. The bean looks no different than I would expect it to~~ small, smooth, very little smell, however it was much smoother and lighter than I would have thought.
As our ceremony began, we called in the energies from the West, North, East and South. As we activated the West, I fingered my bean, and thought how I would like to taste it. A piece literally crumbled into my fingers, and so I put it in my mouth, and was pleasantly surprised at the taste. I found it to be almost tasteless but enough sweetness to make it enjoyable… and that’s where my journey began.
As we went from each direction, I had animal spirits coming forward…
a lion (As such, lions symbolizes emotions that are difficult to manage, such a anger or fear.)
a wolf (Wolves are wild animals that are not easily domesticated and when they appear as spirit guides, they could be an invitation to look at what supports your authentic self and the true expression of yourself. The wolf totem is a reminder to keep your spirit alive and trust your instincts to find the way that will best suit you.)
and a bear (The spirit of the bear is a strong source of support in times of difficulty. It provides courage and a stable foundation to face challenges. When the bear shows up as a spirit guide in your life, it’s perhaps time to stand for your beliefs or your truth. This power animal will provide for support and strength. The bear is also a guide to take leadership in your life or in other people’s lives. This animal is feared and admired for its strength. Its presence inspires respect. Its strength and powerful stature will inspire you to step into a leadership role in your life and take action without fear. Interestingly, in Siberia, the name used to designate women shaman is the same as the word “bear”. In Northern America, in the Inuit tradition, the bear spirit animal is also connected to the shamanic tradition and women.
As we went to the higher world, I had a woman’s face in a star show up and smile at me, and as we invited in our ancestors, another woman, this one much older, wiser, and familiar came forward. She smiled at me and her eyes crinkled…. she was so joyful. At this point I was overcome with emotion… pure gratitude for those who were coming forward for me.
At the beginning of the session, we were invited to play in whatever way Spirit led us to do. We were given markers, pencil crayons, oil pastels and paper. There were instruments of all different kinds to make music with, crystals to hold onto, and smudging materials to cleanse ourselves with if we chose.
I drew and wrote a lot. Spirit continued to come forward with many messages for me. I started off with my hands tied behind my back, my heart closed to anything and everything that the Universe had to offer me. The song, ‘Sweet Caroline’ started humming in my head, and I keep thinking of the ‘Bon, bon, bon!’ that everyone loves to join in on. What I realized in my journey into my heart, was that this closed off heart, the one that is afraid to love fully, to connect deeply with others, simply needed to reach out, to connect with others, to break the chains that have been binding me (the chains being there because I created them) It seems I have spent many lifetimes alone, as connecting with others would only bring hurt. This time around I have filled my life with so many, and yet, don’t always feel the connection…. because I won’t allow it to happen (with myself either)
As we continued to journey forward, I found myself being transformed like a butterfly, stepping into my power, and embracing my full feminine divine. I was reminded of the wisdom that I carry within me, and the wisdom that the feminine divine within me carries as well. I (like all of us) am a Creator in my world. I am able to create that which I am wanting to see, into my life. The only thing that will stop me, is myself, if I allow it.
As my journey came to an end, I was greeted with an Owl, sitting at a desk. He had a book for me, that was locked, and then handed me the key, and told me that the book was now mine to use and implement whenever I was guided to. The book was a Book of Wisdom. As I came home and read what the animal message for Own is, it only makes sense that Owl showed up.
( The owl spirit animal is emblematic of a deep connection with wisdom and intuitive knowledge. If you have the owl as totem or power animal, you’re likely to have the ability to see what’s usually hidden to most. When the spirit of this animal guides you, you can see the true reality, beyond illusion and deceit. The owl also offers for those who have it a personal totem the inspiration and guidance necessary to deeply explore the unknown and the magic of life.)
This was the perfect gift to end the ceremony and I felt as though my journey was completed. I received answers that I needed to hear, while also shedding layers of fears, hurts, angers and disappointments that I no longer wished to carry with me.
Every person that attended, had a unique experience… some drawing, some dancing, some chanting and singing, some playing music~~ but one thing that remained the same was the childlike joy and wonderment that we all felt at the end.
If you haven’t had a chance to do a Sacred Bean Ceremony yet, I highly suggest you do~~ you won’t be disappointed with the love you receive.